I've had a very weird feeling lately... I can't really imagine me leaving Wichita, or starting at a new school, or going to college, or anything else, and then it makes me feel like something life-changing or drastic is going to happen before then. Or that I'll get in an accident or something. I don't really know why I feel like this, because I never have before. And if I have, I've only thought about it once or twice, not constantly.

I'm not like super worried about it, but it's like it's sitting in my body, nagging me.

The fact that I don't really know why I'm having this feeling all the sudden scares me more than the feeling itself I think...

maybe I just need to stop worrying and live in the present. I don't know.